Like any good new-years-resolution maker I came up with a vision board for 2025, finding cute pics and matching them to my goals so that I could stay pumped for a huge year. I printed it out, stuck it beside my bed and now…I’ve changed my mind.

Well, partially at least. You see, it’s not that I don’t still want many of the things I put on there, such as a ski trip, surfing as my new hobby, or a gorgeous house to move into. It’s just that I want other things more. Unfortunately, I fear that in another two months, I will change my mind again, and be right back here too. Ugh. (Hi future me! Did we end up getting anything done this year?)

However, I’m working on remaining positive about my future, and I’ve decided that this change in direction is all a good thing. Maybe all these passions and sudden bursts of inspiration were exactly what I needed to propel me towards the next great stage of my life. Maybe I needed to try these things to decide if I liked them or not, and if not, to know what I should do instead. Rejection is divine redirection as they say.

So, maybe I won’t be a pro-surfer this year, but I did enjoy the lesson I took with my sister for my birthday. And I know that I would like to take it up as a hobby, but I also recognise that my life would have to look very different if that is the case. Good to know.

It makes me wonder how different my life would have to be for other things too, like when I get my first ever traditional publishing deal—I say ‘when’ because I am seriously working on manifesting this! How much time will I have to devote to writing and meetings and promotions? How many fans will I get to meet and impact through my work? How awesome will it be to finally achieve this dream? All exciting questions to ponder, that make me even more motivated to keep writing and getting the work done.

Thankfully, my ‘become a published author’ part of the vision board hasn’t changed.

The friends part hasn’t either, as I’m still looking to build more lasting friendships in my life. I’ve struggled with this in the past and today, and looking around, I’m at least relieved to see that I’m not the only one.

However, I think I’ve realised that this comes back to my own ‘flightiness’. My mind seems to move at a thousand miles an hour, and by the time I make a decision, I feel like I’m already onto the next passion or excitement. Is this the result of growing up as a social media addicted teenager? Perhaps, though I would hate for that to be true. I am grateful for my quick mind, as I believe it helps me to make fast connections, to learn quickly, and to crack some funny jokes every now and then. Yet, I would also love to be able to sit with and stew on ideas more.

Of course, this is a skill that can and probably has to be learned, but I wouldn’t be a proper gen-z girl if I didn’t at least wish that it could be easy. Ah well, here’s to making my next vision board! Maybe this one will stick…